Maybe Today?

Woke up crampy and having some contractions.... maybe today???  If not today then I meet this little man tomorrow for sure!

Still Waiting For Baby Jonas...

Tick Tock, Tick Tock...   I am now 11 days over due for this little guy and I am still waiting!  I have been saying "Any day now" for a month!!!!  at first I was a little depressed that he hadn't been born (some where before my due date) since I was sure this little guy would be early.  But I have relaxed again and said- he will come when he comes or by Thursday.  Yes- I have given up on my dream of having a natural delivery.  Not really given up, just said- okay God- if it's going to happen naturally it better happen by Thursday.  That way I will have given it 14 days past my calendar due date.  I don't want to wait any longer than that and quite frankly don't feel comfortable waiting longer than that.  If I am not in active labor by Thursday morning then we are going to take him by c-section.  This was my idea, not my Dr's.  He said in the beginning not to rule out an induction- but from the research I have done and other Dr's I have talked to, an induction isn't a great idea either; because of 2 previous c-sections the risk of uterine rupture increases significantly.  And- I don't want to be induced!  At all!!!  It was horrible with my daughter and it lead to an epidural, a long labor that didn't go anywhere and then a c-section (this was more due to her hear rate decelerating during contractions).  

My ultimate hope is that I go into labor spontaneously and at least get the chance to try to have a VBAC.  It is in God's hands though- if it is supposed to happen Thursday is the deadline.  That is all the further I will wait.  Some might say that is manipulative to God- but I don't think so.  Many women schedule inductions or c-sections before they are even due- I am waiting 14 days, the amount of days that Dr's say it is safe to wait.  I know many others will say you can wait longer,  but no, emotionally I am not going to.  it's my body and I am tired.  It is time!